My eyes have been so puffy from all the stored-up frustration and late-night crying (in the office, in my car, in bed while the others are peacefully snoring away...). I feel like my skin's suddenly aged +5 years. It doesn't help my Viktor Ortega (Emphasis) haircut hasn't been getting flattering comments from my gay officemate-friend.
What have I dreamt up so far?
- Take my MBA to jumpstart my self-promotion to a better paying job - This has 2 options: To avail of my Janssen benefit and have them pay for my MBA. But this means I'll be limited to UP, Ateneo and La Salle only. My minimum personal requirement? AIM. Next option? Take it abroad, at least in Asia. An Ivy League education costs around P3M++. In Asia, it would be less than half. I've surfed options in Singapore, HK but my preference is Australia!! Now I need to find a full grant/scholarship to get me going. But that means being JOBLESS for at least 16-18 months, unless I work at night...
Migrate to Australia - This came so unexpectedly! Catrina and I were supposed to talk to this Singaporean immigration lawyer, but then I ended up going with my honey instead. During the course of our discussion, my excitement was mounting up like a geyser ready to explode. Everything seemed easy, everything made so much sense... but then again, where will I get the AUD3,500 to process my visa application? Froggy was more than willing to lend me the money, but I felt so hesistant. This is a super-possible dream. I could be leaving the Philippines before December 2005, but I still have to pray about it more... There are so many things to leave behind here. Although now its not so much that I'm leaving someone I love. I'm actually feeling that I can do it more now than two months ago. I can actually SURVIVE and LIVE without him now. I don't know why... Maybe its because I've seen that he's also not THAT driven nor PASSIONATE in keeping me by his side all the time. If he can live without me, so can I. In fact now, he just left to attend a prayer meeting. I wanted to spend time to talk to him about my life options, but then again, he doesn't seem that hot to turn the car around and just listen to me. I find it sad considering we had a SUPER MAJOR fight yesterday that kind of spilled over till this morning. Wait, I digress...
- Find a new job - This is the fastest, and easiest thing to do. But then again, who would want to leave a multinational like J&J?!?!? The past 2 weeks I've already updated my CV, and have used Jobstreet.com to help me out. Potentials to date? Zero.
- Become an entrepreneur - I've always told myself since 1994, "I'm more cut-out for corporate!" But with my artist-y side, being more creative and always being late, it seems I'm not disciplined enough to kiss up to bosses and submit to all their wishes. You CANNOT believe all politics that is dancing behind a thin shroud of pretense here. The sudden promotions, the re-organizational plans (there are changes a-coming soon, but no one's talking to me). Last political move I heard was that one of the PMs here, the one's whose promotion has been pretty quick and has been known to have a glib and super-smooth tongue (and sleeping around with some people inside... Lord, spare us!), is taking the IDP program next year. What?!?! Even our new GM hasn't taken the IDP! What has he done to have merited that?
- Shift careers - I discovered Aveeda (www.aveda.com) and realized that its one of those premier training institutions for future hairstylists, salon and spa specialists/owners, and all others like make-up artists, mani-ped technicians, etc. Those job are well-paid everywhere else but in the Philippines. Alas, to take a full 9-month course (in the US, of course) will cost around US$ 13,000. Eh di sana nakapag-start nalang ako ng MBA. Delete that option.
Ok, let's look at the ENTREPRENEUR aspect. I've found (but haven't acted on) these options:
- Komfort Zone
- Think Rich, Pinoy! (ok, ok, ok.. its actually a book)
Hmmm... where did all my options go??
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